Wait. That was a long time ago.
Well, a lot's happened since then. I went to the hospital because my potassium sucks (potassium is stored in muscle, which is Out of Stock and backordered in the body of Shea). Then I went to Australia because the rest of my body doesn't suck. Always. Then I went to the set of Mockingjay for the last time.
But those all deserve their own posts. I'm writing a different post.
Take your forefinger and your thumb and make a loop by pressing the tips together. Ask someone to try to break through the loop.
Go ahead and find someone. I'll wait.
Well? They shouldn't have been able to.
The other day I went to the doctor. He asked me to make the loop. I flexed my finger muscles hard, wanting to impress him.
Alright, fingers. Get your crap together. I never ask you to do ANYTHING but search for hot guy interviews on YouTube. DO THIS.
Swipe. The doctor's finger broke through the loop. Pinky finger.
"Let me try again."
You have typed novels and pressed guitar chords. Are you going to let a pinky finger be stronger than you? Are you gonna take that?
The doctor's finger swiped through. Break.
"Wait, one more time."
YOU ARE FINGERS OF GONDOR. WHATEVER PASSES THROUGH THAT LOOP YOU WILL STAND YOUR GROUND.
I am weak. But I am fascinated by my weakness, in every way a person can be weak. I bend and break and fall at the touch, words, and love of others. My fragile heart and body are handled by humanity because I let them be. I've always hated machines.
Yes, your loop will break sometimes. But choose whose finger swipes through it. Make sure it is tender enough to let you form that loop again and again.
I cannot stop my loop from breaking. But I can choose who swipes through it.
And mine is worth being broken.